update on life

hey! life at the moment.hmmm....where do i start?

its going ok i suppose, i mean it could go better but i suppose nobody lifes perfect! schools going ok, theres still bitchyness, and i admit, i am still hurting very badley over my friends or should i say stabbers!! i have made new friens in school, and there great! they are such a laugh!! hey gues what! all my report for school are not very good, i never get A'S or B'S, but i got my report back today! and i am doing very well in school! i got a double A, and a few more A'S, in the subjects that i was not good at, and now am doin well! and the rest B'S! my mum is going to be happy! give me a clap please...... louder....LOUDER!!!

church is going ok, i mean its not the same without the turrel family! we all miss them very much! they are a great family! i feel abit down, as nigel was praying for me on sunday and and i kept thinking of school, and how i told my(old) mates about jesus, and i got a couple of them to church! and all the time i would be tellin thm how happy i was with jesus in my life, and now they arnt my friends anymore, i feel a let down, because gill had a vision, how a girl would be in the light at mangotsfield school and how she would be a wittness to people, and that girl was me, i mean WAS! now its gone i feel like i cant talk to anybody like that in school anymore as i failed with friends!i feel to hurt to talk to people about god, as i think, they would think that i am sad and that they wouldnt be my mates anymore!get what i mean?? i know it sounds silly but thats just the way i feel. i hope i will get to be open about it again, i think soon as i stop being so hurt about my friends then it will go...or will it???help please!!!

im alwys going out with my solid mates from church, as they are the best ever! they make me feel so much better, and i am always laughing when i am with them, but then when i am at home on my own i feel quite low infact. please pray for me!!! i dont usually ask people to there face as i feel silly! dont know why!

this morning i texted a mate from youth club, a girl i didnt get on with that much. but she was telling me how school was going and she is in the same situation that i was in at school! so i really felt for her and texted her! and i will be praying for her, as i REALLY know what it feels like!!!trust me!!

this is the longest blog i have done so i think i should stop now, otherwise my blogs are going to get as long as lozas!!!!!! inabizzle!!!